4:00 AM

Yes, I am still awake. It's funny, because most of the time when I try to pull an all nighter I just end up falling asleep from exhaustion, but now I'm kind of wanting to go to bed and this is the time when my body decides to pull an all nighter. Sorry if I'm annoying you guys, but this is really getting on my nerves as well. I have another episode of CSI on, but I'm still having a lack of concentration. This is so hard for me to deal with. Ever since Saturday, I've been thinking a lot about my ex-boyfriend. Problem is, he likes my best friend now. Well, it's so gerat to get this out. I should probably be putting this on my top-secret blog that no one reads, but I'm being nice today and you can all hear about my tragic love story. Or more like plural love stories. I'm so sick of everything. He's in love with my really close friend. She's practically exactly the same as me, and ugh! I didn't even realize I liked him this much until now. I've pretended to hate him for so long that when I finally started thinking about it, all of that hate I let boil up inside of me was really only leading in the opposite direction I wanted it to. He told me that our relationship was on pause and that he wasn't sure how long it would be on pause before he was ready to give me another chance. I am so exhausted. Physically, and emotionally and the sleep WILL NOT COME no matter how hard I try. This episode is very entertaining but I keep on zoning out... and then when I zone out, it's really annoying because I lose track of everything that's happening in the show. Still, all that matters is that I catch up I guess. I do realize that I really do need at least some sleep, so I'll probably just get it in Seminary. I do love that class, but it's really the only sleep I'd possibly even have a chance of getting some rest in. I'm kind of angry right now... and I don't really know why. I thought I'd gotten over all of the angry feelings I was having last week, but apparently I was not even close to the end.  Haha I love this show... It adds humor to the crime. Yes, yes it does. I feel like I'm on opposite laughing gas... I'm so depressed for absolutely no reason. I swear I could write a novel with all of the posts I'm writing today, so I'm going to try not to write very much more, but I wish you guys all have good days even if I don't!

Love Y'all!
Emma