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Thursday, January 5, 2012

Post 2 of Today.

Yep, that's right, I'm writing post number two. In three, two--Oh wait, that doesn't work with this kind of thing. I am really hating myself right now. No, I'm not thinking of doing anything stupid, but I really wanna just figure this stupid life-puzzle out. As you can probably tell, I am pretty angry I right now. Things are feeling kind of tense and quiet right now, and I feel kind of warm even without my jacket on. I feel a major migraine coming on. Too bad I have my SEOP today, otherwise I'd just go home and sleep. Yes, that would be nice.

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Dang it. I thought I had most of this figured out after that last blog entry, but I kind of figured out at lunch that I kind of am still in the freakin' ditch. I would much rather forget about anything that ever happened with guys and just wait for them to come to me. I got called desperate today. It sucked, because I know for a fact that it may as well have been said from my own mouth.

As of the last post, you all know that I have MAJOR crushes on these two guys right now, and I'm not really sure how to handle it. I'm going to try not to go on and on about this, but it's really important for those of you who are reading this that if you have any ideas of what I should do to comment with them. I would really appreciate anything, accept for hate-stuff.

This is going to be all about who to pick from now on. I know all of the pros and cons of both choices, but I don't understand who I should pick because they are both amazing people for millions of reasons. I have been thinking about this all day, ever since second period when I saw his eyes sparkling again (they were GORGEOUS). I've been on and off of it all day. I'm acting like I'm on some drug, but honestly, I'm LDS, and any drug is VERY VERY VERY VERY bad for you, and another thing; I'm a good girl.

Here's a little detail: They used to both have girlfriends, and now there's only one that does. Still, it sucks because I am practically madly in love with both of them. Even though having one of them free helps a little bit, the one that I really want to be with is still dating.
Wish me luck with my boy-strike tomorrow.
Love,
Emma.

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